Most girls have a strong bond with their mothers. This is something that happens straight after birth. Us girls rely on our mothers for advice, for guidance and most of all for their love and friendship.
Being an only child, my mum and I have ALWAYS been super close. She was told she would never have children, but she had me. So her will to fight and break the rules came early on.
My mum raised me for a long time as a single parent. She provided for me, she instilled some amazing traits in me and she really, really became my role model.
I remember growing up, I used to just sit in my grandparent’s bathroom and watch my mum get ready for work. The way she did her hair, the way she applied her makeup and the way she smelt. I remember the smile on her face she would have when she was done and ready to go. She’d give me a big kiss and off she went, to work, to provide! In my eyes, she was superwomen!
Every memory I have as a teenager, growing up and going out, has my mum in it. She was always the life of the party. I remember the first time she snuck me into the Crown Casino, so I could experience a REAL girls night out. I don’t think I had ever laughed so hard! Those girl’s nights became a ritual, and up until the night of my accident, we continued to have a blast together.
I remember lying on the stretcher after my accident, thinking to myself, “Omg, someone has to tell my mum what has happened.” My main concern was how this was going to change her life. I knew that she would make this, her life! That’s just the type of women she is, she would give up everything, to save the world if she could.
When she arrived to the hotel and saw me, I’ll never forget the look on her face. Things were bad. But her face, and her words made me know, we would get through this together, and I kept that thought throughout the whole experience.
If you know my mum, and I, you’d know, as close as we are, we have the most incredible fights! Two people that are so close and have so many of the same personality traits, CLASH! Sometimes our opinions are quite different, and sometimes all that stubbiness and fight that she instilled in me, comes out when we have those fights. But our fights always come from the fact that there is just so much love between us, and that we care, so, so much about the other, that the decisions and choices we both make individually, generally effect the both of us as a whole!
For 3 and half years, I’ve watched my mum fight! Fight for the same reasons I fight for. She fights this everyday battle I live with, as if it was her own. Everything I feel, I know she feels too.
We have been through so much together, and as a family, that I am not surprised that it’s been so long since I’ve seen that smile… Until yesterday!
As many of you know, there’s recently been a new addition to the Tracey-Bradford/McKay family. Our beautiful horse Penny.
Having never had a horse before, this was going to be a whole new and challenging experience for me, and secretly, knowing that my mum used to ride horses, I thought this could be something fun and therapeutic for the both of us.
One thing I will tell you about our girl Penny is that she really does melt your heart. She has the most amazing personality and really has the ability to bring out the best in people.
Mum has been at me for weeks to ride her, and as I only just got clearance myself to ride her, I was a little hesitant as I wanted to form that bond between horse and rider with Penny myself first. But I finally gave in and yesterday, witnessed the most special thing. Mum and Penny, bonding.
Now the last time I saw my mum on a horse, was the same day I vowed never to get near a horse again as the horse I rode was a nutcase, so I never actually got the chance to watch my mum ride. But when I watched my mum get on Penny yesterday, there it was, that smile that hasn’t been around for a while!
Watching the way my mum just jumped up and take control of those reins, and move with beautiful Penny was just bliss! I watched all those thoughts, and stress disappear and there she was. Superwomen! It was so exciting seeing my mum so skillful but so natural at the same time.
I’m really looking forward to making this more then just a moment. To see that smile more then once! For Superwomen to really take flight!
We have been through so much, and we drive each other crazy, but you really are my rock, my saviour, my amazing and beautiful mum!
You Are My Heart And Soul
For standing by me through thick and thin
For not giving up on me when I didn’t win
For your patience when I kept pushing you away
For caring when I said I didn’t need you anyway
I am grateful knowing…
I can count on your strength
Ask for your support, and know you’ll go to any length
When I lose my way
You help me get back on track
When in pain
Your comfort soothes and brings me back
I am lucky because…
When I was sad you gave me faith and hope
When I was confused you taught me how to cope
When I felt I couldn’t go on
You carried me long miles
When I didn’t believe
You restored my smiles
Mum, Thank you
For your guidance and you faith you’ve shown
For giving me a safe place where I have grown
For showing me how to strive
Because of your love
I will survive!
(My two amazing women, Mum & Penny)